Growing up, trust was in very short supply in my world. Those whom you would normally trust had proven to be non-trustworthy. For me trust had to be earned and it was not automatically given. For the abused child especially this is a truth that they carry with them. So how do you learn to trust again? For me it was a slow process.
Your heart yearns for someone who can show you the least bit of encouragement, a nod of approval in an otherwise cruel world. All you can usually see is darkness, a gray haze that covers your life and dampens all of your hopes and dreams. It is a mist and fog that penetrates to your soul. It is a confusion that keeps you stuck were you are and will not release you to go to that place where you can even dream of a better day. There were times that I could not see "the light at the end of the tunnel". It was too far away from my reality.
I began to draw from God. I knew that those silent tears and prayers were reaching upward to God. I felt better for having prayed them. He was someone whom I could confide in and He would never tell a living soul about what I had told Him. I came to discover as time went on that He could instill in me the ability to see a little light at the end of the tunnel.
As I kept talking to God then the light in the tunnel began to shine a little brighter each day. You see hope had entered into my life. Someone once told me that you can endure anything if you know that what you are enduring will soon come to an end. The light at the end of the tunnel is manifested as hope in your life.
Matthew 12:20&21 tells us that He[Jesus] will not crush those who are weak or quench the smallest hope.. and His name[Jesus] will be the hope of the world.
If you are in a situation that you feel is hopeless begin to talk to God about it and ask Him to give you hope.
Until Next Time, Gracie
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